I've been feeling really frustrated, disappointed, and angry with myself for a while. I've never been someone who makes it a top priority to keep my house clean, and I've always felt that if it's sanitary, it's good enough. I still pretty much feel that way. We live here, and we use our house, so it's okay that it looks like it.

Still, though, we have a housekeeper who comes three times a week for the whole day.